Mystery Unsolved

Too real to ignore, too far to yet see,
too fast to decide what's between you and me.
With glimpses and smiles, a laugh or a word,
so swiftly it passes, leaves me half-reassured.
Yet it is enough to keep me involved,
my questions unanswered, mystery unsolved.
I watch from a distance, I question my heart.
Out of fear of its ending, I may not let it start.
It is once, maybe twice, in a lifetime so long,
that too people unite with love's bond so strong.
But is this that once? I can't tell, I won't try.
Who am I to decide what's between you and I?
In times of uncertainty, in areas of gray,
I wonder where reality meets mind games we play.
For if I can't trust what is warring inside,
how can I trust you? My hands are tied.
But it is no fault of yours. I refuse to blame you.
You cannot know how hard it is to know what to do.
I will leave it within, my questions unresolved,
my decisions undecided, the mystery unsolved.